Global Talent Search Update

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This is the poster I submitted in progress and the final piece. It took a while to finish in between my full time job, my boys, and my daughter getting ready for college.

The last post was some of the different borders I was trying out for the final piece. It was a lot of trial and trial. I think I chose the right one in the end.

It came down to an all nighter before a full day of work. I’m a little old for that. I’m still on catch up, but I’d do it again in a heart beat. It’s really pushed me to just get the work out there. It’s always in my head and my sketch book.

So, now I wait…. with stress and wringing hands. When they post all 999 entries I’ll add a link . If you want to see last years entries check out Lilla Rogers Global Talent Search 2013. Wish me luck.

Art is self doubt

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Working on a new piece before the last ones finished. Lol not new. I will get back to little red but this has a deadline. I have been working and stressing. Art is joy, gut wrenching, nervous wreck joy. I love being creative in any way. But it always gives me that self conscious voice. I try not to listen. You as artists know what I’m talking about. It’s always there when you put yourself really out there. The more it like a piece the more I’m worried no one else will. Crazy huh. I keep pushing. I’m going to conquer that voice. I’ll teach it to love me.

Back to school

My boys will hopefully be starting school again next week. The teachers are getting a raw deal and they may strike. My boys are going into 3rd, 2nd and kindergarten. If they start on time I’ll be able to be there for their first day! But if not I may miss it.

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Not because I don’t want to be there but because I’m separated for their dad and if it’s not on my day he may not care for me to be there. I hope for the best.
My daughter is also going back for her 2nd year of college. I’m really happy for her, but with all that’s going on in her life and mine I know she is stressed and worried.

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She starts at the end of the month. If I can just get through a little longer things will settle down. (I know that’s not true, but nice to lie to myself sometimes to get through.)
I hope all of you get through the back to school season okay.

Little red

I’ve been thinking about a little red riding hood piece for some time. I think this will be one of many. Here is the sketch.

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I hope to get it painted before the end of the week. The boys are begging for attention.

Bipolar life

As you all know I am bipolar. I’ve been struggling with the ups and downs of life and stress. My Rx has been a struggle to have it work well and control my swings. I was on Depakote and Effexor ER, but it wasn’t really working well enough. I was tired, gaining huge amounts of weight and still swinging moods. I asked to switch to something new. I’ve tired about everything and had bad side effects or they just didn’t work . The dr switched slowly to triliptal. It’s worked. It’s funny for the first time I felt normal. Like my life wasn’t a crashing wreck falling out of control. I wasn’t thinking a million miles a minute. I’ve been able to do art work. I’m able to get my finances on the road to recovery. Despite a bump here and there from my estranged husband things are going so well.

But I worry it’s all going to come crashing down again. I’m going to loss control. It’s waiting for me to let my guard down and wham. It shit deep in an emotional torture chamber of hell.

Let’s hope for sunny.

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Pleine Air Update

The pleine air group has continued with only one week of me missing. I had a migraine and was unable to attend. My skills have improved and I can paint much faster now this decent results. The group changes size each time we meet, but it will stay as long as I am still going. I may be the only one but I love it.

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20140803-200918-72558733.jpgthis one was my first one and worked to slow. Tithe light changed and they sold so much produce they let changing the display. Good for they bad for me. I also ended up with a sin burn dispute putting on sunscreen three times. I was going to finish it up at home with some pen and ink. But I could remember enough of the detail.

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20140803-201557-72957842.jpgthis one was a poor choice in view. There wasn’t enough contrast to bring the picture to a focal point.

20140803-201657-73017005.jpgthis was a great picture down while holding an umbrella hoping to finish before the rain hit. Which I did. Even with a rush job it turned out well. Next weekend it’s a farm scene!